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21 day water fast: Day 21

I woke up into the darkness, with an overwhelming feeling of gratitude: for the universe, for Réka and the opportunity to be here – as well as for the fast itself.  I sat down to meditate, with the expanse of gratitude laid out as a back-drop to everything in my mind.  It felt and continues to feel like an inner smile expanding from all directions in and around my heart.  Everywhere, almost as if my body were breathing the mantra: ‘thank you, thank you, thank you…’

21 day water fast: Day 20

Today is the last full day of fasting.  By the evening I’ll already be into Day 21.  The feeling, which came to me as I woke up this morning, is that of when you’re about to say goodbye to an old friend whom you know you’re not going to see for a while.  There’s an element of regret in parting from each other, but you know that your friendship is stronger than the time and distance you’ll be spending apart.  And besides, you know you’ll meet again…

21 day water fast: Day 18

Driving into town yesterday provided a reference point about how my consciousness has naturally and gradually opened from a more focussed perspective.  In retrospect, the whole trip itself provided another, deeper reference point, because since then – in breaking the solitude and continuity of being here at the cottage, as well as in buying the food which will break the 21 days of pure water – I keep finding myself thinking about the approaching end of the fast…

21 day water fast: Day 17

Today I went into town to buy fruit for the end of my fast.  The thought of going to the shops had a certain exotic excitement to it – in contrast to my usual apathy towards shopping.  And yet, mixed into the feeling was also one of slight sadness that the fast is going to end soon. Driving the 10km from the village into town, I realised that I’m really not quite with it…

21 day water fast: Days 12, 13, 14

I’ve not written in the last couple of days because there really hasn’t been any significant change to talk about.  Subtle shifts, yes, but it’s taken a couple of days to establish whether these are real or just my imagination. Maybe first and foremost has been a gradually rise in mental energy – as opposed to physical energy which, although slightly stronger, still falls into the “hitting the wall” category of debilitating weakness…